Sometimes I find myself getting angry easily at little
things and sometimes just feeling nothing but frustration. Being unemployed can kind of bring out the
not so great side of me. I admit, I hate feeling frustrated all the time. I
don’t want to be living with this feeling. But at a lecture called Annual
Meeting held by The Mother Church of Christ, Scientist in Boston I realize that
I have been doing something wrong in the way that I look at things, my thinking
has not been all that clear or loving.
For the longest time I have been resenting the fact that while all my
other friends have been receiving wonderful jobs (most of them right out of
school), I have had no such luck in even nailing an interview, despite the
copious amounts of applications I have sent all over.
At times I have felt
that my religion, the one that is supposed to help me overcome difficult
situations easily, has been letting me down.
Well today I realized I’ve been going about my problem all wrong. I have been forgetting the most fundamental
part about being a Christian Scientist, and that is being CHRISTIAN. If I just led my life more by the first commandment,
love thy neighbor as thyself, then I can make steps towards the science part,
the healing. I need to be a better Christian.
Once I replaced the angry/frustrated feelings with that of nothing but
love for everyone, did I start to feel progress.
For
those of you who might be in a similar situation as me I assure you that
despite the feeling of hopelessness/sadness/frustration/despair, you don’t need
to let it consume you. John, from the
Bible, knew what he was talking
about when he said “God is Love.” ( 1 John 4:8)
but the whole quote actually is “Anyone who does not love does not know
God, because God is love.” (English Standard
Version)
To me, not only does God
love us, but we need to show God we love him, and we can do this by expressing
the love he gives us. After some
reevaluation of my attitude, I realized there was absolutely no reason I should
let other people’s lives influence mine. I needed to see them in a more loving
light and not one of hate. So I went
through and thought of every good quality each of my friends possessed, and why
I thought of them as a friend in the first place, and after a while, I was no
longer jealous or upset. I knew then,
and I still know now, that Love (another name for God) will meet my needs.
